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nal_reneSo the end of Senior year is nearing and all I can think about is... "LET ME OUT!" I love school a lot, on a normal basis, but recently I have been so apathetic with life. Nothing matters anymore except me, myself and Bri. All other things are trivial in comparison. I even want to spend time with my family more than I do at school.
It's sad because the teachers still try and teach us things, but it's futile because we have all caught this nasty disease called senioritis.
Example...
I have a reflection paper to write, but because I don't want to participate in school like functions, I thus don't have more than a thesis for this paper that needs to be in Rockne's hands by Monday. (Note: Monday is the highly celebrated Senior Skip day. Wooot!)
I think my apathy comes from not being in the senior show. Theater is what has propelled my success. Now I don't have that. Yes I am still sore. I got the part I wanted, even though it wasn't a big part because it was awesome, but I had to say "Sorry, your out of luck guys... I'll still be here virtually every single day because my best friend is in the show, but you won't have me! My parents are STUPID ASSHOLES who THINK they have my best interests in mind, but they don't!"
With that in mind let me tell you what they said, "Riannon, you are selfish and a bitch whenever the topic of theater comes up."
My response? No I'm not. I care more about people than you even know. Being used is the sad truth about being a parent. A child is not supposed to be the one looking after the parent. The parent is there to love and cherish and teach, not to burden them and make excuses. Secondly, I'm only a bitch because you diss my most beloved aspect in life. I am not a theater flake! I may not be on time to every single thing in the world, I may not be able to read minds, but I am on time to the things that count in my life and I guess I'm sorry that I'm not a God!
Their next argument, "You neglect the things that really mater-"
Hold it! The things that really matter are my grades (I have straight A's), Bri (She and I... well :D that's a different topic), and making sure that I get into college so that you can get off my back (I have been accepted to go to CWU). I'm sorry that you are no longer on my top priority list. That Theater and finding a job ranks higher than you, but you had your chance. Those years when I was totally absorbed into you, when I thought you were the best goddamn thing in this universe.
Now you aren't. You wasted you're opportunity. You pushed me away when I tried to cuddle or get a simple kiss or a meaningful hug, you still push me away. You pushed me away when I wanted to play with you, do everything with you. I wasn't what was important to you. You were what was important to you (Mom is the only exception, she was trying to feed me).
Now I am leaving and you want to spend more time with me. So I quit the last show. I sobbed and quit because of you. You have always made me cry. I can find very few times when you have made me smile, really smile not just humor you. None of them were recently.
Okay I have to stop. I can continue this rant later.
The main reason that I find being a senior to be Frustrating is all of the Hormones raging in my body. I am horney all of the time! TMI I know, but it's true and there is no opportunities to fix that. Masturbation hardly works anymore. There is no place and no time and it is irritating.
It's sad because the teachers still try and teach us things, but it's futile because we have all caught this nasty disease called senioritis.
Example...
I have a reflection paper to write, but because I don't want to participate in school like functions, I thus don't have more than a thesis for this paper that needs to be in Rockne's hands by Monday. (Note: Monday is the highly celebrated Senior Skip day. Wooot!)
I think my apathy comes from not being in the senior show. Theater is what has propelled my success. Now I don't have that. Yes I am still sore. I got the part I wanted, even though it wasn't a big part because it was awesome, but I had to say "Sorry, your out of luck guys... I'll still be here virtually every single day because my best friend is in the show, but you won't have me! My parents are STUPID ASSHOLES who THINK they have my best interests in mind, but they don't!"
With that in mind let me tell you what they said, "Riannon, you are selfish and a bitch whenever the topic of theater comes up."
My response? No I'm not. I care more about people than you even know. Being used is the sad truth about being a parent. A child is not supposed to be the one looking after the parent. The parent is there to love and cherish and teach, not to burden them and make excuses. Secondly, I'm only a bitch because you diss my most beloved aspect in life. I am not a theater flake! I may not be on time to every single thing in the world, I may not be able to read minds, but I am on time to the things that count in my life and I guess I'm sorry that I'm not a God!
Their next argument, "You neglect the things that really mater-"
Hold it! The things that really matter are my grades (I have straight A's), Bri (She and I... well :D that's a different topic), and making sure that I get into college so that you can get off my back (I have been accepted to go to CWU). I'm sorry that you are no longer on my top priority list. That Theater and finding a job ranks higher than you, but you had your chance. Those years when I was totally absorbed into you, when I thought you were the best goddamn thing in this universe.
Now you aren't. You wasted you're opportunity. You pushed me away when I tried to cuddle or get a simple kiss or a meaningful hug, you still push me away. You pushed me away when I wanted to play with you, do everything with you. I wasn't what was important to you. You were what was important to you (Mom is the only exception, she was trying to feed me).
Now I am leaving and you want to spend more time with me. So I quit the last show. I sobbed and quit because of you. You have always made me cry. I can find very few times when you have made me smile, really smile not just humor you. None of them were recently.
Okay I have to stop. I can continue this rant later.
The main reason that I find being a senior to be Frustrating is all of the Hormones raging in my body. I am horney all of the time! TMI I know, but it's true and there is no opportunities to fix that. Masturbation hardly works anymore. There is no place and no time and it is irritating.
