Where Does The Sky Go At Night

So the end of Senior year is nearing and all I can think about is... "LET ME OUT!" I love school a lot, on a normal basis, but recently I have been so apathetic with life. Nothing matters anymore except me, myself and Bri. All other things are trivial in comparison. I even want to spend time with my family more than I do at school.

It's sad because the teachers still try and teach us things, but it's futile because we have all caught this nasty disease called senioritis.

Example...

I have a reflection paper to write, but because I don't want to participate in school like functions, I thus don't have more than a thesis for this paper that needs to be in Rockne's hands by Monday. (Note: Monday is the highly celebrated Senior Skip day. Wooot!)

I think my apathy comes from not being in the senior show. Theater is what has propelled my success. Now I don't have that. Yes I am still sore. I got the part I wanted, even though it wasn't a big part because it was awesome, but I had to say "Sorry, your out of luck guys... I'll still be here virtually every single day because my best friend is in the show, but you won't have me! My parents are STUPID ASSHOLES who THINK they have my best interests in mind, but they don't!"

( Now for rant on parents which isn't finished yet. )

My week is full. Rehearsals until god knows when, finals (I'm worried about math), and drivers test next tuesday (not tomorrow). I AM GOING TO PASS GOD DAMN IT!

first of all the lady did her math wrong. I got a 73 not a 71. I know it's only two points and I still failed, but still! Two points is the difference between a 78 to an 80, or a 79 to an 81! I could have my license and not be hounded constantly. God damn!

But even if I get my license and get to drive I will still have to get into that fight with my dad over cars. God damn him. If he wants his car then he can get a JOB! I have one. It's temporary, but I am actively looking for a better one. He isn't.

Oh well.

I'm still excited for the next few weeks to come. A Delightful Quarantine starts next week (even if my drive test is on previews) and I am the narrator Lucy! I love this play. It makes me so happy.

Also I am Directing the next play and have cast a fantastic group of student actors. It's called For Better. It... I'm not very good with summaries, but it is about virtual dating and the problems and comedy of having relationships using technology. Now I love technology, but the play makes a good point on how ridiculous it can get and how we NEED the human interaction.

Well I'm going to go do homework and review for math.

This week has been cool. Only 3 days of school and despite the stress with the play, I think this week has been awesome. I have three good scholarships to apply for.

Tomorrow is me and my girlfriend's two month anniversary and I think I am silly. I was determined not to be the silly girlfriend who gets excited over two months, but after yearning for so long I guess it's okay for me to be so excited. I have to figure something out to make tomorrow special. Maybe I am just being really silly. IDK.

Saturday is Bri's birthday. I am getting her a french press. She desperately needs coffee.

I do have to say that 5th period is even more difficult to ignore the idiots because they are IDIOTS! They don't listen and they talk too much. I really wish I could just do this... not this period. Oh well, only 45 days left of this class.

A fine day at Zirbes's house. She was really excited to see me and we were able to keep conversation light. Why don't I hang out with her more often? I should. I must. I will. We played Halo and Fatal Frame 3. The latter scared me shitless and I will probably have nightmares... actually I hope that I don't. I would cry. And bri isn't there to scare the scary things away. She's off with Granny. It's pretty cool that she is going to hang out with her for the weekend. I mean I don't need her to scare the scary things away. I'm not that much of a wuss...

But down to the point of this post. Zirbes is doing a magazine for her senior project and she has me doing a jello ad. It's fun. it normally takes four hours to set up the jello, but we only let it sit for 2 1/2. it was a cool texture.