Ding Dong!
Oct. 8th, 2010 12:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nal_reneOuch. I hurt my hand.
So I realized, talking to some of my friends at lunch that I can't really talk to them about my relationship/relationship status. Juliet was talking about how her and her boyfriend (well he is practically her boyfriend) talk about stuff before they do things. For example: they talked about holding hands before it happened, talked about being together before it happened, and the major recent thing they talked about was kissing, the how and where and when.
She asked me if that was awkward or weird. I told her no.
I wanted to tell her about how me and my novia talked 6 hours before our relationship happened. So no it wasn't weird. I wanted to tell her that - though the conversation took place in 30 seconds and i don't really remember what I said - we talked about kissing before it happened. I wanted to tell Juliet that it made me feel safer and that was why it wasn't an awkward thing. I wanted to tell her this, but I didn't... I couldn't.
So I simply said that it wasn't a weird thing. That it wasn't unusual. That it was a good thing.
It's hard being in a relationship with my girlfriend because I can't tell anyone. If I do... well my school is awesome about being tolerant, but it's still so hard. I don't want to be labeled as lesbian, because I'm not. Or bi-sexual because I'm not. I love who I love. I love someone because... I do. I love because of the emotional and intellectual and physical bond I share with them. And I don't want people to say this is just a phase because it's not. I love her for better or worse, though I don't really know her feelings. She loves me. My inner paranoia says that she may or may not, but that's stupid.
Ugh... complicated much. I want... hmm... not to think about this doubt and indecision. But I do. Man my physiological data is totally going to plummet to the realms of depression today... oh well.
Weight lifting was quite the experience today. The chick I weight lift with (the sophomore) might be pregnant. She is concerned because her period is late and she had sex with her boyfriend last week. Some of it was without a condom because they wanted to know the feel. Well he did. She completely accepts the blame because she let him do it, but she's concerned and I want to help her. I told her to wait until next week and take a pregnancy test then we could go from there.
I'm pretty sure that mom will take us to planned parenthood if I ask.
Okay I just asked. No she would not, but I have a whole new bolstering of information for her. And I could help her get a bus to planned parenthood, but she might just be overacting. Her period is late, but it could be the stress because that will delay its timing. It could also be a change of environment. Also, it's only 2 days late. That's not unusual.
Stress is gone now. :) Yay!!!
I hope that Pereira has the scripts in now. If so then I have 7 minutes until I get to start reading scripts. That will make me very happy.
So I realized, talking to some of my friends at lunch that I can't really talk to them about my relationship/relationship status. Juliet was talking about how her and her boyfriend (well he is practically her boyfriend) talk about stuff before they do things. For example: they talked about holding hands before it happened, talked about being together before it happened, and the major recent thing they talked about was kissing, the how and where and when.
She asked me if that was awkward or weird. I told her no.
I wanted to tell her about how me and my novia talked 6 hours before our relationship happened. So no it wasn't weird. I wanted to tell her that - though the conversation took place in 30 seconds and i don't really remember what I said - we talked about kissing before it happened. I wanted to tell Juliet that it made me feel safer and that was why it wasn't an awkward thing. I wanted to tell her this, but I didn't... I couldn't.
So I simply said that it wasn't a weird thing. That it wasn't unusual. That it was a good thing.
It's hard being in a relationship with my girlfriend because I can't tell anyone. If I do... well my school is awesome about being tolerant, but it's still so hard. I don't want to be labeled as lesbian, because I'm not. Or bi-sexual because I'm not. I love who I love. I love someone because... I do. I love because of the emotional and intellectual and physical bond I share with them. And I don't want people to say this is just a phase because it's not. I love her for better or worse, though I don't really know her feelings. She loves me. My inner paranoia says that she may or may not, but that's stupid.
Ugh... complicated much. I want... hmm... not to think about this doubt and indecision. But I do. Man my physiological data is totally going to plummet to the realms of depression today... oh well.
Weight lifting was quite the experience today. The chick I weight lift with (the sophomore) might be pregnant. She is concerned because her period is late and she had sex with her boyfriend last week. Some of it was without a condom because they wanted to know the feel. Well he did. She completely accepts the blame because she let him do it, but she's concerned and I want to help her. I told her to wait until next week and take a pregnancy test then we could go from there.
I'm pretty sure that mom will take us to planned parenthood if I ask.
Okay I just asked. No she would not, but I have a whole new bolstering of information for her. And I could help her get a bus to planned parenthood, but she might just be overacting. Her period is late, but it could be the stress because that will delay its timing. It could also be a change of environment. Also, it's only 2 days late. That's not unusual.
Stress is gone now. :) Yay!!!
I hope that Pereira has the scripts in now. If so then I have 7 minutes until I get to start reading scripts. That will make me very happy.
