I see in a Haze of Blue and Grey

[nal_rene]

I feel really depressed. I don't think its the weather, because it was overcast and rainy yesterday too (Because no shit, its washington!). I think I am having post PMS depression, but i've never had it anywhere near this bad. I don't feel like killing myself... I just feel... really upset. I want to scream and nothing makes me feel better. If its even a tiny bit noisy I want to kill everything  and if its silent I want to bawl my eyes out or die! I'm not even sure if Brianna's voice will help me today. I hope so, but I so don't want to talk on the phone. I really don't. But I really really want to talk to Bri...
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I've been sitting here for awhile just doing nothing. I really want to curl up and die. I think I will surf around for bad harry potter fanfiction. I really don't want morgan to come home. I really want him to just disappear. No... I'm the one that wants to disappear. I don't want to be around anyone in my family. I really just want it to be me and mom... just us... Morgan and dad can go on a two month vacation for all I care. Better yet I wish Morgan had never been concieved, in thought and in a physical sense. I just want it to be us three. I really miss just being with my parents with no thoughts about Morgan. GOD! I CAN'T EVEN TELL THEM!!!! They already think I hate morgan. I don't...



Bri lets run away to Colorado or something.

Comments

[mako-lies.livejournal.com]

Riannon, you've had me really worried today. Next weekend, I'm going to steal you, because you need time away from your family, and we can just hide in my room while you're here.

I'll call you later (hopefully you're more phone desiring then) and we can talk.

[mako-lies.livejournal.com]

I feel special. I has my own tag in which I am ruler of all.

XD